I don't know if I could call it a choice. My brain is wired to make characters and stories, to put words together, to crave a narrative so badly that I make it myself. I've been doing poetry since I was 11, RP since I was 13, and prose not long after. It's a part of me. I'd still do it even if my main project withered and died.
I am, however, very afraid of that latter prospect, because here I must make the distinction between 'having a writer's brain and compulsively storytelling and roleplaying' and 'actually writing'. Because a lot of times, I can't choose to write. I hate to think of myself this way, I hate to admit it, but mental health and some other factors leave me disabled. And a lot of standard 'force yourself', 'you're not a writer unless you write' advice is ableist when applied to me.
So, I guess my answer to "Why do you choose to write/what do you get out of writing?" is this: I can't not do it in my head, that part of me is turned on 99% of the time even if I can't do anything with it at the time, and I get validation and joy when other people like the things I've come up with, so when I'm physically able to I bring it out of my head and show you.
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Date: 2015-08-24 08:22 pm (UTC)I am, however, very afraid of that latter prospect, because here I must make the distinction between 'having a writer's brain and compulsively storytelling and roleplaying' and 'actually writing'. Because a lot of times, I can't choose to write. I hate to think of myself this way, I hate to admit it, but mental health and some other factors leave me disabled. And a lot of standard 'force yourself', 'you're not a writer unless you write' advice is ableist when applied to me.
So, I guess my answer to "Why do you choose to write/what do you get out of writing?" is this: I can't not do it in my head, that part of me is turned on 99% of the time even if I can't do anything with it at the time, and I get validation and joy when other people like the things I've come up with, so when I'm physically able to I bring it out of my head and show you.